frankly, I believe it. this is such an awful mishandling of tragedy on so many levels from so many different sides. and the real victims here are the students that might have been saved but instead were left to die.
i am possessive about my food that I actually like and am excited about eating. if i order something at a restaurant, you have to be a very special person to eat at my food without severely bothering me.
but at the same time, i realize this isn’t socially acceptable for me to internally rage with contempt when people are constantly taking all my food so i just try to pretend like idgaf when my new friend is eating all my special western food that i paid way too much money for bc this is korea and that shit is expensive and doesn’t offer to pay for any of it (hello nachos with a baby side of cheese and salsa for $8) and then says “thanks for sharing your nachos” when she never asked for any and I never offered (internal twitching)
however i don’t think this ‘idgaf’ facade always works because one time I was with someone (this may or may not be the same person) who swooped in for my food and I must have had a look because she immediately put it down and gave it back to me. LOL. but I was like “no no haha ^___^ take my food… take it…. haha…ha…”
i am an extremely patient person when it comes to people in my life and i also rarelyyyyy get angry. but this is the one thing that is sure as shit to twitch me off. i might need therapy for this issue if this friend keeps on eating all my food without my explicit invitation
most people i know, when they want to hang out, just text me or message me.
today someone called me asking to hang out. which is great, but there is something about someone CALLING you to ask to hangout that makes it so fucking hard for me to say no.
i have a bad headache, tired, had a bad day, just generally feeling totally crap, but when my friend called I said I would hangout because she was talking about how it was such a nice day and she thought of me to hang out. ;_____;
but after I got off the phone I realized how shitty I felt and how I was going to probably be not that much fun to be with. so i messaged her (naturally, it’s also way hard for me to turn people down on the phone) but she never saw.
so i had to call her. and this is probably the first time i turned down plans with someone over the phone in YEARS. so when i told her i got to hear how disappointed she was and also, i was so awkward about it that I sounded like i was lying even to my own ears
now i guess i’m just writing this out because i feel really bad and guilty and also because when you want to make plans with someone, spare them this pain and just do it over text. lolol.
on a scale from 1 to sansa stark, how much do you regret your childhood crush
5 dead stink bugs in my enclosed balcony in my apartment, 1 alive. this is turning into a graveyard.
I just finished watching Blue is the Warmest Color, the French film I’ve been seeing around and hearing how good it is and what not so I just spent 3 hours of my life watching this
I don’t know why but I didn’t get the same feels as other people seem to have for it. Maybe because I just really didn’t like Adele for some reason, especially near the end. Even though I definitely liked the film overall, I couldn’t identify with the main character and she felt very distant to me so I couldn’t get the same identifying feels for what she was going through.
Also, the whole film was so uber-realistic it was almost unrealistic. Like it just all fell really flat for me because there were so many just clips of nothing really going on and then occasionally a spike of action. I never felt wrapped into the movie, so it felt 2D. It was a pretty good and interesting film but it didn’t grab me and ultimately, definitely didn’t live up to expectations (expectations being super feels, so don’t get me wrong, other than that, it was good).
But because it was pretty unique and I’m still thinking about it, digesting it, I’d recommend. Especially because I feel like my opinion is in the minority.